So This Week … (A Rant)

I need to talk about a couple things that happened in the news this week. Entertainment and otherwise. I’ve been on forums, blogs and the like to see some disturbing fuckery that has brought me here to vent.

First up, the shootings in Fort Hood, Texas on November 5, came as a shock to many. My heart, thoughts and prayers go out to the families of the victims and wounded. It’s SO sad and tragic to know that these soldiers died at the Readiness Center. The last stop they go before being deployed to warzones in Iraq or Afghanistan. These men and women faced gunfire and a war (on a smaller scale, of course) on American soil. At home. Who would have thought, huh? Upon hearing about this at 10pm (and the story broke I believe after 1pm earlier that day) I went to the site I frequent most for forum discussion and realized not a ONE thread was made about this. That was interesting to me as the board is predominantly American. Anyhow, I brought it to the board’s attention and initially the comments were those of prayers to be sent and condolences to be left. Then the board’s resident “shock poster” tried to come in there with his usual ignorant antics and profess his distaste for Muslims and Islam. He basically said “Well, what do you know he was Muslim” … No. Actually, Maj. Nidal Malik Hasan was American. He (the shock poster) basically used Hasan’s background (of Jordanian descent) to try and say these ideals were that of a Muslim terrorist and further went on to say Islam is NOT a religion that preaches tolerance, love and peace but rather, preaches hate and the downfall of Americans. It’s just like a self centered American to think a religion is based on THEIR downfall. LMFAO. I was SO SO SO very offended by his comments. I’m not Muslim but to read the shit he said, you wouldn’t have to be to get angered at his idiocy! I’ve studied world religions and I know quite a few Muslim people and I was so upset to hear these views spewing forth from his fingertips. He truly believes the Islamic faith is about hate and violence and war. How ignorant he is. He said Muslims are lying to us and SAYING they are about peace and love but they aren’t. This fucking DOUCHEBAG has his head so far up his own ass that he doesn’t seem to GET that extremists are the reason Islam and Muslims have such a bad reputation. EXTREMISTS! They have taken the fundamentals of Islam and have twisted and manipulated them to justify their sick views and hatred of the western world. THESE EXTREMISTS ARE NOT INDICATIVE OF ALL MUSLIMS. Please know this. ARGH! But then I realized this is someone who heavily detests Barack Obama and supports George Bush and loves Rush Limbaugh. Once you realize who and what you are dealing with, an argument becomes moot and irrelevant. But for all the jackasses out there – educate yourself. Talk to the source and make your own mind up. Do not regurgitate the bullshit the media shoves in your face. Please! At a time when we should be banding together to pray for those lost in this tragedy, people want to show their true racist colours and point fingers. What a SHAME. You should be ashamed.

Another thing to be ashamed of: The entire Rihanna and Chris Brown situation. GET THE FUCK OVER IT, PEOPLE! This happened 9 months ago. Sure everyone wants to hear Rihanna’s side of things and speak about it but the most OBVIOUS thing was missed. Her timing. Everyone I’ve talked to is aware of this but they don’t seem to care! WHY!? You are reacting the way her PR team wants you to. How dare she, after 9 months, finally break her silence and speak about such a serious topic JUST to bring attention to her new album. No one is denying that what happened to you at the hands of Chris Brown wasnt terrible, Ri Ri. You most definitely suffered and I wouldn’t wish what you went through on my worst enemy BUT at the same time, as you said in the interview, you realized how much of an influence you had on these young girls. If you were SO concerned about being such a positive role model why did you wait SO long to speak? And, when you DID speak why did you sound so coached? Speak from your heart. Not from a script. You are helping NO ONE – least of all yourself. At first, I saw only ONE clip and I still believe you were being sincere, albeit careful about the words you chose, but sincere nonetheless …. then I hear from literally everyone that you should’ve kept your silence because you sounded extremely coached. I have yet to watch the interview in its entirety so I can’t really speak on whether or not I found you were coached but if EVERYONE is saying so, then there must be some truth to the accusation. I don’t even really CARE to watch it, to be honest. I just feel I should so that I don’t sound so biased and believe heresy. My problem though is that Chris Brown did his time – some will argue he didn’t get the proper punishment, and that may be so but regardless, he was sentenced to do those hours and he did them. Rihanna didn’t die. She healed physically and SEEMS to be healing emotionally. BOTH HAVE MOVED ON AND ARE MOVING ON. So why can’t y’all? I understand these are celebs and their lives becomes ours in a way but the older you get the more you should realize that these people literally have NOTHING to do with you. Don’t give me that shit about being a fan and you put money in their pocket so you have the right to be in their business. I’ve long maintained, celebs are just rich and famous humans like you and I. And with the age of the mp3 and downloading, most of you don’t put no damn money in their pocket. Be real. You are NOSY. That’s it. That’s all. GET OVER IT. The bigger issue one should be arguing is not that of Rihanna vs Chris but of domestic violence as a WHOLE and how women and men need to keep their hands to themselves. Not saying Rihanna deserved it (I would never say that) but we don’t know the entire story and the media has spun it this way for a REASON. Ri Ri all but admitted how bad she and Chris were FOR EACH OTHER. Not to say that if she hit him first or provoked him, he had a right to go off on her THAT bad but for men and women out there … I was raised like this: If a man puts his hands on you, you fight back and you defend yourself tooth and nail but if YOU hit a man first, expect him to hit you back – period. A good man probably won’t. He’ll probably walk away before it gets to that but NOT EVERY MAN WILL WALK AWAY and you HAVE to know this. You have to know that if you push a man, he just may push you back and KNOWING this, KEEP YOUR HANDS TO YOURSELF. No one has the right to hit anyone. There is no justification. Period. Just live YOUR life (no pn intended – holla Rihanna lol) and stop worrying about everyone elses. You look media illiterate and groupie-ish.

I’m Disappointed.

Mariah’s album had promising snippets leaked before it dropped but when I heard the full album …. disappointment.

Amerie’s album leaked today and you guys KNOW how much I love her but again … disappointment. I may need to listen to In Love & War a few more times but I don’t know. I know all artists grow and change but the production on this album is severely lacking the energy and flyness of her last two LP’s. ‘Tis a shame.

The only R&B album that’s dropped recently that I can’t get enough of is Trey Songz’s “Ready” … I can listen to it from beginning to end – no skips. A great, great album. I believe 2010 will be Trey’s year.

I’m gonna need for these albums that are being released to come harder because all I’m getting are a bunch of dope singles and like 2-3 ill tracks on average of a 14/15 song LP.  I’m not buying a $20 CD when I can’t even listen to half the tracks. Shit’s out of control. Stop rushing through your projects and take time to build a solid album.

Please.

Internet Vs. Real Life Rant

Don’t sit there and tell me what you put on the ‘net isn’t a reflection of you or your current mind state. Fuck that. You’re delusional. The world-wide web is home to the real and the fake but I would hope the people I meet and KNOW on it are nothing but real. At the very least, I’d expect them to be the same online as they are in real life. I say this because I only know GROWN people. Children do things like create fake net personas.

I was just told to pay no attention what’s put on someone’s facebook because it’s usually done to throw people off. Off what!? lol … Now, if I wasn’t personally affected I wouldn’t care. Your facebook is YOUR facebook. Do what you want but when you are telling me things that are SUPER serious; when you claim to be showing me things that are VERY serious, I’m going to be looking at your actions to see if you are contradicting yourself. And YES, that includes your actions towards me in person, on the phone AND on the ‘net. The internet is just as important a communication medium as the phone or face to face speaking. It’s not the most ideal means but its an important one. If you deny that you’re lame. Social networking is HUGE for our generation. Do NOT discount its influence.

I’m not a person that’s going to take ANYTHING you say seriously if you are contradicting yourself in real life. Hell, on my facebook I claim to be married. But I can DO that because there are no men in my life that I’m leading on to believe they could be my man. Right now, it’s in all good fun. However, if I ever find myself in a position where I’m dating someone I would change that status. Simple.

You tell me that you want to marry me. You tell me that you want me to have your child (no exaggeration here) and then a few days later you have relationship status changes on facebook, youtube links dedicating songs to your “boo” and status updates implying you have a shorty you’re feeling? And I’m supposed to think what you told me is the TRUTH!? LMFAO. Facebook or not, I’m not looking at WHAT you are posting so much as the fact you ARE posting it!  There is a difference. To me it says a lot about your character and where your head is at. What’s the reasoning behind doing that? You SAY it’s to ward people off that are trying to holla at you but you have the choice to NOT say anything at all. Instead, you consciously CHOOSE to contradict yourself.  Personally, I believe you want a reaction. You want me to ask questions. Perhaps you may even want to make me jealous. If anything, all it does is turn me off, push me farther away and deepen my already skeptical nature of you.

And don’t further piss me off by telling me I’m trippin’ for believing what I see online rather than what you are showing me. You must think you are showing me something that goes above and beyond what I’m seeing online. You are wrong. Also, don’t wish me good luck with “all that”. It’s a slap in the face.

I don’t appreciate the mind games.

You people past the age of 23 need to grow up and realize the ‘net is the ‘net but who really goes online past the age of 23 to be “someone else” or allow people to believe they are someone else? If people are that nosy and in your business, try lessening your online presence. Or eradicate them from your life altogether. It’s really not that hard.

One thing about ME, and anyone that truly knows me will vouch for me when I say, my online “persona” directly reflects my “real life” persona … What you see is what you get. There is no frontin’ over here. I surround myself with like-minded people … I just wish you would do the same.

Dating In Toronto 25+

You’d think with the 25 and up crowd, dating in this city wouldn’t be an issue as far as what I’m about to say. One would think maturity would play a part. Sadly, that’s not the case.

It has been my personal experience, and the experiences of many friends, that dating in this city is NOT easy.

Dating PERIOD is never easy but in a city as small as Toronto, it makes it that much harder.

Case in point: Toronto, as far as population goes, is pretty “big”. You have all the neighbouring cities and ‘burbs surrounding it making it now the GTA (Greater Toronto Area for non-local readers) and you’d think this would widen and broaden the dating radius when in essence it actually makes it SMALLER. Ha.

Then, add into the mix social networking sites like Facebook, Twitter and still Myspace at times, and you’ve narrowed your dating radius to about …. lets say the length of your street and/or size of your local mall. ARGH!

Chances are when you meet someone, he (or she) will know about 3-5 of your friends and about 5-10 of your acquaintances. GOOD OR BAD ones at that. This can work for you or greatly against you. I feel almost like, if you date a “who’s who” you will be ok. Dating within social circles tends to work out lovely for most but for the rest of us looking in there is always a shit talker or two willing to “break up a happy home”. This take on the dating scene is actually very high school angled but it’s really not far from the truth, at all.

This city is full of people who are trying to maintain some sort of socialite/celebrity status. Everyone has a title or label (whether they want it or not) and this can affect the regular ass 9-5 worker or, someone who doesn’t crave nor obsess over attention and the spotlight.

If you are a regular 9-5′er and you date someone who is in the “industry” (for lack of a better term, because I don’t even know if we HAVE one) or date someone who is FRIENDS with someone in the “industry” and they don’t approve of you, you are out. In seconds. I’ve seen it happen. First hand. More than once. Being in the 25+ crowd and being of sound mind and maturity I can say I don’t get involved in people’s relationships like that. Unless you are one of 4 very special girls, whom I call my sisters, I would never, ever, ever interfere in someone’s happiness or potential thereof. It’s not my place and I firmly believe if you are a shady person your karma will come full circle.

I had a good friend of mine tell me last night that because of the things I’ve aforementioned she’s been forced to keep her relationship on the complete DOWN LOW. She barely tells people she’s even in a relationship, she won’t discuss him with anyone nor will she update her status on Facebook. I can’t  say I blame her. Her reason? The fact people will talk and probably not have nice things to say about her or him. Even if it’s lies and rumours she is certain mouths will run; and all the way to the finish line at that. It’s almost like people don’t want to see other people happy. They can’t just let the chips fall where they may and let people learn about their partners for themselves.  No one should have to be forced to hide their relationship or stifle their happiness for fear of jealous and nosy retribution! However, this is just so.

It’s a shame that ADULTS have to resort to childlike behaviour and play “hush hush dont tell.” It’s not as simple as saying “forget the haters and naysayers” because if you really care about someone you almost HAVE to play like you are Jay Z and Beyonce. But who is REALLY a celebrity in this city? We ALL just want to be happy and happy with someone we can call our own. Why don’t the miserable people always trying to cause trouble just sit back and worry more about their life and why THEY are single and leave the people who want a shot at happiness alone?

People will say that they are only trying to protect their friends from being hurt and I get that. I would do the same for MY own friends but I’m referring more to the people who have no REAL care or interest invested in a couple and just choose, for the hell of it, to talk shit and plant the seeds of doubt. Leave people alone to figure out their own paths with each other. If you feel you REALLY are OK with being THAT person, then I hope you don’t believe in karma because just when you find that special someone to settle down with – someone will talk shit about YOU.

This girl, me right here, I choose to keep my guard up and my ears alert. This city is too small. Everyone knows everyone and in my experiences if you are friends with certain people or a certain crowd I actually steer clear of you because I KNOW how much gossip and shit talk happens within that circle. And again, as a reminder, these are ppl 25 and up. It’s a sad day. At this age you should be thinking about settling down and into a better tax bracket with a spouse, a house and children. Instead you are too busy worrying about who’s with who and what party is the hottest.

I wish the older and “grown” crowd of Toronto could just get their shit together. And at the same time, mind their own damn business.

It’s Men Like Him ….

… that make me not trust the male species.

I’m not one to male bash and say all men are dogs because I KNOW that’s not the case. But I can’t lie or front and say that HE isn’t the reason why I always have my guard up and why I’m super cautious when trusting the words and actions of a man.

Some background: I casually dated a guy for about a year roughly 3-4 years ago. I had known him for even longer before that but we met online and never met despite living in the same city. We got together one night and we instantly clicked. We hung out often and I thought he was different because HE was the one that stated he didn’t want to move too fast or have sex right away because it complicated matters. I thought he was awesome. About 3 months later we slept together for the first time and it was good. I really liked him a lot but I was still not done dealing with the break up of my daughter’s father and I so I just quite enjoyed his company. Whatever it was he and I had, I liked it as it was. I didn’t chase him, I didn’t harass him and I sure didn’t nag him for a relationship. He is a party promoter and good at what he does, he was also really busy … I didn’t beg and plead for his time – he saw me when he could and I was OK with that. Then almost a year in, I started noticing things to make me believe maybe he wasn’t who I thought he was. Those details are pertinent but not necessarily ones I want to share. In any case I soon found out he had a girlfriend. I wasn’t sure how long they had been together but it didn’t matter. All that mattered was I was officially his “side piece” and he had lied to me, deceived me and lead me on. I was really angry and hurt by it and he never really admitted it or apologized. I cut him off and didn’t speak to him for MONTHS. Eventually I forgave him but for MY benefit, not his own. I soon realized that all that “let’s not have sex right away” talks were probably ony because he had a girl. I’d been duped.

I started a new relationship with my (male) best friend at this time and that “other guy” became nothing more than a distant memory. I seen him around the way from time to time and we even hung out a few times (at this point he had apologized for his previous actions, but who knows how sincere it was) but I never fully trusted him again so it was pointless for us to be anything other than friends, but even as my “friend” I held back from him. He always eluded to our past relationship and always hinted at sex and wanting it and how good it was. I was often left to believe that was the only thing he remembered about me. It hurt but all the same I used his love for my sex to my advantage. I never gave in despite all his attempts.

We don’t talk often but from time to time we do. I eventually took him off my Facebook, all my IM’s and even my BBM list. I left him on my Twitter for reasons I don’t even know. I even took his number out of my address book. One day a few months ago I got a text from him. I knew it was him right away (sadly, his number, although erased, was still etched in my brain) … I played dumb and asked who it was. His reply: “Clearly, you deleted my number so nevermind.” Haha. Then a couple weeks after that I got a message from him on Twitter. We slowly began talking again but it was really innocent and brief conversations. But, like clockwork, he AGAIN  eventually started hinting at sex and I bluntly asked him if he was still attached. He said he was. I just shook my head. I pretty much leave him alone. He did ask if he could re-add me to BBM. I said fine. But he won’t re-add me to Facebook. Probably too much at risk to do that *rolls eyes*. This was about 3 months ago.

I awoke yesterday morning to a text from him: “…” <== wth? I didn’t know what that meant so I texted back “?” and he replied: “Sorry, I was having dirty thoughts” … OH MY WORD. That entire day he and I went back and forth on BBM. I didn’t encourage any of his fuckery though I definitely put forth a lot of set ups to find out what I needed to find out. He took the bait everytime.

He went into details about why he still thinks of me, how I pleased him and how much he thinks about it. I asked him if he was getting taken care of at home and he told me he is but that “You are you, you know that”. Now, I’m not one to brag but I know what I’m capable of. I’m good at making a man feel good. BUT, I didn’t think it was possible to have a man feeling this open after 3 years. I won’t lie. I felt flattered and wanted but I knew the dangers. (I should mention I found out he was with a new girl … not the same one from 3 years ago) If I was a different kind of female I would take his shit, sleep with him and pity his girlfriend but I respect other people’s relationships (the same can’t be said for other people and MY OWN) and I fear karma. I DO however, pity his girl.

I asked him if he believed what he was doing with me was cheating and he said he didn’t know but assumed I did given that I asked the question.

Later on in the conversation I asked him what he wanted and he told me he wanted me to come over that same night. I said that he knew that couldn’t happen and then he asked me flat out “Do you want to fuck?” and to that I replied: “Do you want to cheat on your girlfriend?” He answered no and that’s when I went in on him and said, it doesn’t matter what I want. I’m single and owe no one anything but he is in a relationship and should he not want to cheat then don’t. Should he want to fuck me, then come with it and cheat. You can’t have it both ways. He never responded to that outburst and the message was definitely read on BBM.

I can bet you if his girl read that conversation she would FREAK OUT. I know I would. He is trying to play me dark … Like I’m some regular lame broad with no respect or morals or SENSE. I hate him for that and it makes me angry that he feels I would crumble to his “charm” … Does he think that little of me? I feel bad for his girlfriend who is unsuspecting and probably thinks he’s the greatest guy in the world. If she only knew …

He is the reason I get so suspicious with regards to men and their intentions. It’s so easy for him to come at me how he does and feel no two ways about it. I don’t understand it at all. Does he think I’m OK with being a sideline hoe? How can he think that when he knows where I stood and what I did when he put me in that position before? He just lacks respect for me and it pisses me off. But the real victim here is his girlfriend. It’s not my place to say anything to her but I do hope she wises to his ways. He may have been unsuccessful at fucking me but I’m sure there is a line up of willing chicks to take my place.

I talked to a mutual friend of ours about this situation and left out all identifying details and without he or I admitting it, we both knew who each other meant. He told me that they (this guy and his gf) are actually pretty close and lovey dovey with each other – sometimes to the point its almost sickening (his words, not mine) and this made me feel even worse for her.

I sometimes want to say something and other times I don’t but in the end I know he will get his. He needs to grow up. I can tell you this much .. he will NEVER have this again. He’s gone SO far beyond the line … When I see how easy it is for a man to be unfaithful and deceitful it makes me want to stay single and how I am forever.

FOREVER.

Marcia & Tony Dooley Seek New Trial; I Cry Bullshit!

Lawyers for the couple convicted in the infamous beating death of Randal Dooley argued today they deserve a new trial because the jury reached its verdict based on emotion rather than the evidence.

Tony Dooley, now 43, and Marcia Dooley, now 39, asserted their 2002 trial was unfair, resulting in second-degree murder convictions and blamed trial judge Justice Eugene Ewaschuk for several legal errors, some of which incited and confused the jurors.

“This may well be the worst case of child abuse in Canadian penal history,” said Ewaschuk, who sentenced Marcia in April 2002 to life imprisonment with no chance of parole for at least 18 years. Tony received life imprisonment with no parole for at least 13 years.

“Ewaschuk repeatedly referred to the deceased as “poor, pitiful Randal” and displayed his acceptance of the Crown position that Tony Dooley mistreated Randal,” Clayton Ruby, Tony’s lawyer, told the court.

“Please do not give in to your natural human emotion of dislike for the Dooleys and the way they mistreated poor pitiful Randal,” said Ruby, quoting Ewaschuk’s instructions to the jury.

The judge used “poor, pitiful Randal” so often the jury might have mistaken it for his proper name, he asserted.

While the judge reminded the jury to assess the evidence in an objective, dispassionate way to render verdicts based solely on the evidence, Ruby said his inflammatory language – including calling Randal’s body “recked, ravaged” – was a call to punish the parents.

When Ruby said his client didn’t mistreat his son, Justice David Doherty interjected, saying, “Tony Dooley conceded he belted the child” at the end of August and Randal never attended school in September because of the father’s fear of detection by the authorities.

Ruby said those injuries aren’t related to the child’s tragic death on Sept. 25.

“Tony was frequently absent from home (from late November 1997 to mid-May 1998, he was in the U.S.) and he didn’t participate in the assault or assaults,” said Ruby.

Ruby argued that for Tony to be convicted as an aider or abettor to the murder his conduct must have had the effect of aiding or encouraging Marcia to kill Randal.

“By failing to do his duty to protect his child, it effectively created open season on the victim,” shot back Doherty.

“I don’t like the phrase open season,” countered Ruby.

“Well, it opened the door to continued abuse or facilitated it,” added Doherty.

An autopsy found that Randal suffered 13 fractured ribs, a lacerated liver, four brain injuries and bruising and welts from head to toe. The 42-pound, seven-year-old died Sept. 25, 1998 after having endured prolonged, horrific abuse.

Evidence of prior incidents of abuse by the accused couldn’t be used to prove that the accused were the type of people likely to deliver the fatal blows against Randal.

“He failed to warn the jury that it could not engage in general propensity reasoning to conclude from Marcia’s past conduct that she was a bad person and therefore likely to have committed the offence charged,” wrote defence lawyer Marie Henein, who represents Marcia.

“The trial judge also failed to warn the jury that it could not punish Marcia for her past misconduct by finding her guilty of (murder) when, in fact, the jury was not instructed that it must first be satisfied the prior abusive conduct actually occurred before any use could made of it,” wrote Henein in her filings with the court.

The jury also had to decide whether Marcia or Tony “actually committed the prior abuse,” and especially the prior head injuries, noted Henein.

Marcia’s longer sentence showed the judge concluded that she “was signficantly more blameworthy and deserving of a harsher punishment.”

Tony Dooley admitted he inflicted a vicious beating – which shredded an imitation-leather belt – on his son on Aug. 30, 1998, which kept him out of school as the father feared detection by the police or CAS, added Henein.

The tiny boy, who emigrated as a healthy but small boy fromJamaica in November 1997, suffered a facial injury from Marcia for losing his mittens in January, a broken arm in February and had 25 criss-crossing whip marks on his back in April, all months before the homicide, the trial heard.

The appeal is expected to last through Thursday but may conclude earlier.

SOURCE

FUCK them … seriously. Treated unfairly? Verdicts rendered on emotion rather than evidence!? Tony Dooley ADMITTED he beat this child. But because it can’t be PROVEN the prior abuse was done in a timely manner and it contributed to his death, at the hands of these two people, they want a new trial? WHO ELSE could have beaten this child so badly!? How else do you suppose jury’s render a verdict when the guilty ADMITS his guilt of abusive conduct!? What more evidence do you NEED?

You don’t suppose poor little Randal didn’t feel he was treated unfairly – when he was brutally murdered at the hands of the very people that were supposed to do everything in their power to protect him? Fuck you Marcia and Tony. You both should burn in hell. How dare you even THINK of asking for a new trial. Bastards.

This case has ALWAYS haunted me. I’m not sure why, but I think about Randal Dooley often from time to time and I cry when I think of the abuse this child endured. The extent of his injuries, not just at the time of his death but in the few years he was here after emigrating from Jamaica, are horrific. It makes me sick to my stomach to know people out there can do this to a child. 42 pounds he was when he died. I lifted my 35lb 5 yr old daughter from the couch and carried her to bed tonight and realized I could never harm her.  And I imagined her tiny body suffering from the same injuries Randal had and my heart broke a million times over.  I have ZERO sympathy for Marcia and Tony. I truly hope they rot in hell.

Gone but never forgotten, Randal.

Reward Now Up To $2500 For Abused Dog

Humane Society workers in Durham Region have increased a reward for information leading to the arrest of whoever neglected a dog to the point where he was found bleeding from his face and feet on Sunday night.

They’ve named the four-year-old male Chow “Phoenix,” because if he pulls through, he would be like the legendary Phoenix bird that soared up from the ashes.

The reward has increased to $2500.

The dog was found in a backyard in the Courtice area, in what Humane Society and SPCA officials are calling “horrific condition.” Officers say the dog was dirty, thin and his fur was matted.

His ears were severely infected and his nails had grown out several centimeters long–so long they had curled into the pads of his feet.

Staff with the Humane Society of Durham Region are trying to nurse the dog back to health.

Anyone with information about the dog is asked to contact the Durham Region Humane Society.

Via Pulse24

Sleep In the Eye

I guess thats what I call it. I’ve heard names like eye boogers, eye shit, gunk, crusties. I just call it “sleep” but this morning my sleep was hard and jagged and when I went to rub it out, it actually SCRATCHED the sensitive skin around my eye! It’s not noticible to people but I know its there. This annoys me because sleep shouldn’t be so damn hard. Hard enough to scratch skin!? NO!

This is a random post with NO purpose whatsoever. But I needed to share. Why? I don’t know.

I hope everyone’s day got off to a better start than mine did. lol.

Please Let Go Of Your Youth

There is a time and place for everything. Of course.

But … sometimes you gotta just let shit go. When you reach a certain age you have to learn to leave things alone. As a grown woman (and if you have a child – as a mother), there are things you just don’t do.

I mean, in my previous post I stated that my taste in what kind of man I prefer has changed. I’ve never really had a set physical type or anything (though, I do have a personality type) but if you asked my girlfriends they would tell you my exes or guys I’ve dated all seemed to have some sort of physical similarity. I promise you though, it was never intentional.  Anyhow, I remember when I was younger and in high school, the “thug” was “in” … at the very least the “thug look” was in. I had a boyfriend in grade 9 that fit the description and he hit me. ONCE. My cousin promptly took a bat to both his knees and that was the end of my “thug fixation”. I learned early … at 15. Some bitches are my age and still haven’t learned. I don’t think you need to be beaten or bullied to know a thug isn’t a good man. It should just take common sense. Fuck all that “gangstas need love to”. No they don’t. They need a jail sentence and a punching bag. Unless you are volunteering for that position, leave ‘em alone. It’s like bitches think that look or that lifestyle is appealing. And “hot”. In grade 10 I met my first “real” boyfriend and while he wasn’t no punk, he was far from a thug. He was a gentleman, knew how to treat a woman and still had that ‘edge’ to him. I’ve pretty much dated the same type of guy since. That’s what I like … that’s what I deal with best.  I don’t understand the desire to like a man that looks like a roughian. One that beats you, does or deals drugs or hangs with people that do. I mean, no one is perfect and no one is saying to be as such but … after a certain age, isn’t a woman supposed to want more for herself and her future then to be dragged down by someone that has death or jail as theirs? I mean, I figured that out a LONG time ago, so why can’t some of these other bitches? Simple minds I suppose? Or lack of self respect? Don’t even get me started on females that feel this way and have kids.

Then you have the chick’s that sit online and talk about other people or make people feel shitty about themselves because they have nothing better to do. if you are that bored in your life: THATS SAYING SOMETHING! WAKE UP! MOST grown adults can see that its really YOURSELF whom you hate. You sit there and talk shit like you are the best thing since sliced bread but you have weave in your head, bumps all over your face, you are about 20lbs over weight and think because you wear name brand clothes you can put down others. GROW UP and leave that high school, juvenile shit in the past. A lot of females in general gossip with their friends and whatnot but you don’t have to be malicious about it and it says something when you feel you have to do it in front of an audience. It’s like you want people to know who you are and think you are so funny and / or cool or fearless to “speak your mind” but the only people that feel that way are simple minded, lacking self love bitches like yourself. A real woman would shake her head and take pity on you. At least that’s what I do.

Then you have lazy females. Bitches that aren’t about shit. I don’t want to even start on this because I will honestly snap. Just get off your ass and do something with your life. That’s all I’m going to say.

Moving onto the bragging heffas. Oh I can’t STAND y’all. Brag about shit and it’s not even worth bragging about. I got this or I did that. I went here and I went there. Bitch NO ONE cares. Seriously. Don’t think I care. The only reason I’m even mentioning it is because your shit is in my face almost 24/7. It’s OK to be proud and brag about positive things, and life changes but it’s another to brag about simple shit that don’t mean nothing to anyone but yourself.

Oh and you selfish bitches? You bitches that think the world revolves around you and thinks the world owes you shit. Two words: fuck you. That is all.

I don’t know. I don’t get it. I just feel like a lot of people these days are acting WAY below their actual age. I don’t know if its lack of motivation or that they are truly thinking they’re still 19 but when do you become a WOMAN? When can you let GO of your youth and GROW UP and make your life matter and be about something other than other people’s entertainment? Like, damn. Are you REALLY OK with that? I won’t ask if it bothers y’all because if it did, I would LIKE to believe you’d do something about it. I won’t ask if you are happy because I already know you can’t be because if you were you wouldn’t need so much attention for other people or things to fill whats an obvious void in your life. I won’t ask you to stop because I’m sure you’d rather slice your wrists than give up your throne.

Stop getting so caught up in the attention and praise showered upon you. It’s not real. It’s not respect. It’s fake. The same people showing you love are thesame ones talking about you behind your back. Fake smiles and compliments – I’ve seen them. I’ve heard them. Furthermore, if people ARE going to shower praise and attention onto you, be courteous enough to THANK them; they hang on your every word like a fucking clitoris piercing, so the least you can do, is use the manners I hope your parents taught you, and say “thank you”. Shit. Stop being so vain and self-centered. But then again, these fuckers have you so high on yourself and on a pedestal that you think you are a queen and your subjects don’t deserve such politeness.

Idiots.

I Wish …

…. these fucking fireworks would SHUT UP so I can go to sleep. As I’m typing this there is a constant barrage of fireworks going off and I timed it ..  for an entire 78 secs.

FUCK.

SOME people have work and class tomorrow. Bitches.

*phew* finally stopped

Happy Canada Day, gotdammit.

OMG no … another set … this is like almost 3 minutes straight. FUCK OFF !!